A little fever and some quiet time

I have my laptop set on a TV tray table, and can curl up on the couch, with a sick toddler in my lap who wants and needs to be held, pull the table close to me and blog. The sight of my infant son fast asleep on my husband's chest on the small sofa next to me and my husband is being slowly lulled into a baby induced slumber is priceless. I needed a quiet moment where I could type my thoughts, undisturbed, and this is about as good as it's gonna get. We weathered the storm of being stripped of funds by overdue back child support, but after this next paycheck, it will be paid off and done. Then we can focus on saving up for our own place. There is a sense of peace in my soul about this realization. Of course there are a couple other items that need to be financially attended to, but we can handle that on our own.

This is what is on my mind today. The premise of my own place to call home, being the only one to answer to if dishes don't get done, if laundry doesn't get washed, folded or put away or if the house does not get cleaned or tended to. I can sort my refrigerator the way that pleases me and expect it to stay that way. But, I would not have this day, nor these hopes, if it were not for the kindness of others. Having any roof over my kids heads is better than living on the street. And for that I have been truly blessed.

Living with others has it's challenges, but the benefits far outweigh them in the long run. Sometimes it's healthy to vent our petty frustrations and shout out to the universe a loud and resounding "ARRRRRRGGGGHHH!!!" but then come back to reality and breathe through our issues to create peace, harmony and compromise. Every family lives their own way, and when you place two different families together that is where the differences can cause disharmony without patience, understanding and simple communication.

One foot in front of the other, no matter how slow the pace, how gritted your teeth are from holding your tongue to keep harmony on the forefront before your own petty issues is much better than rallying against the petty differences causing you to go flying into a pit of anger, self-righteousness and judgmental bickering. 

I set it aside then for a peaceful today, a harmonious tomorrow and a hopeful bright future.

It's the best I can do.